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another sad post after like... 6-7 months .
quite alot of things happen to me today.
shall not name them but they should know who they are.

-Person A
-Person B
-Person C

today PA hurts me alot.
he/she just went to school without even telling me he/she is leaving early.
do you know it hurts me alot.
hw many times? that u were late and i waited for you.
seriously , u changed.
COMPLETELY. after PC came.
CIGGERATES. all about ciggerates.
i know i might get whacked up or whatever but i just take it anymore.
my heart shattered into thousand peices.

i hate it !! i hate it !! i hate it !!
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i really hate the feeling.
i hate it !!
y cant you just understand my feeling for just 1 minute?
or even a sec?
i know. after PB appear i changed.
but its not entirely his/her fault alrights/
seriously i cried for u alot of times today.
but so wad if i tell u im sad of wad u did.
will you stop wad u are doing and take note of me?
even so , i would only be for a short period.
when u find me useful for some stuff u did.
i know i'm not someone u can hang out wif everyday now.
but can u spare a thought for me?

i'm really very grateful to you for wad u did to me in the past.
when u were by my side when i'm sad.
i thank you for that. really.
but i really cant take the fact that u ignored me this few days.
u seldom come and find me.
even if u find me it will be for a short time
i know im also at blame for not finding you too alrights.

i don't expect any good things in return for you.
i'm writing this post just to let out my feelings.
so yeah.