FUCK !
why must you be so sensitive over things that happened two years ago?
why must you give me the cold shoulder?
what am i to you actually?
a prisoner?
that you must keep watch for 24/7?
i have enough.
FUCK YOU!
i wonder where the old you went.
where you joke and play around and stuff.
if you want to be a loner thats YOUR problem.
wad you do does not mean what i MUST do.
i've had enough.
FUCK.
do you think a little bit of sweet words can touched me?
please, i've became IMMUNE to it. get it?
fuck.
i can't smoke. fine i get it. its bad for health.
i can't pierce my ear/tongue/lip wadsoever. scared i pain? nevermind
i can't cut myself. that i can understand. nobody wants it.
but i can't even say vulgarities?

i've changed so much. for you. and yet why you can't change to the old you where i can laugh practically EVERY SINGLE DAY?
i guess even uncle (jiasheng), boy(chervin), or even boy's friend(jonathan) can do better then you please..
you FORBIDDED me to say vulgarities right?

KANNINABEI CHAO CHEE BYE. FUCK YOU INSIDE OUT UPSIDE DOWN!
I HAD ENOUGH ! FUCK !

i don't give a damn shit about vulgarities.
why are you sentitive towards it?
IT IS THE OLD VALERIE YI YOU FELL IN LOVE WITH ONE YEAR AGO.
if you can accept the old me why not the me now?
like the old me is 100000x worse then wad i am now luhh.
why?


i only wanted an explantion.
i know something is bothering you these few days.
but can you tell me about it?
i don't want to keep guessing and the impression you gave me is that
"i want to break up with you, but i dunno how to open my mouth"
get it?
i'm really sick and tired.
gotta juggle relationship and studies together.

and mdm lek was giving the fucked up face this whole amath lesson.
FUCK !~
i can't even study in peace that my sister rushed me home when i'm at shermaine's house today?
my life is screwed up.
i really need to find time to breath.
being drown in an hourglass FUCK !
i cannot find a way to de-stress myself.
like shouting vulgarities? keeping all my feelings inside me?
i know many ppl are suffering more issues which is more stressful then mine but for me i really cannot cope the stress i have.
oh FUCK !



i want you to know that i really love you alot. and it is more than what it used to be.
baby i love you ~


how i wish time will just stop. Everyone, everyting is frozen, and will never be like what it used to be.