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why does it seems so hard for the words to come out when its already at my teeth.
seriously, this kind of feeling is one that i've never expect it to occur on myself.
i thot your special. different. unique and someone who i can reply on.
however it seems to appear as the other way round.
no matter how many times i've told you, it has never been through your mind AT ALL.
it really makes me wonder if today, is the same as before.
why does it also seems that i'm the one that is giving out, protecting you when it is ur responsibility to protect me.
why does everything between us seems inverted?

Untill then i realise that you are actually a selfish person.
one that does not care about your loved ones' feelings.
all you think of is having the possesion of certain something and never thought whether others like it anot.
seriously, the question i've asked you just now have answered whatever i wanted to know.
that you are still lying to yourself when i can feel that whatever you said does not match what you think.

why must you say a thing, and do another?
if you track back, you can really realise something that u said u can let go, is still clinging on to you like a slug, feeling very uncomfortable.
likewise, i don't like too.
at one point you agreed, on the other hand you dislike it so much.
if you really don't like it then u might as well don't agree with me in the first place.

does keeping everything to yourself really that enjoyable?
seeing me thinking wild and wondering what on earth are you worrying about makes you over the moon?
please, i am not a robot a machine or whatsoever.
if you talk to me i can asure you that i'll answer you and try to help.
but you choose to avoid me, avoid the situation and avoid yourself.
seriously, seeing you suffering so miserable inside and not knowing what on earth are you thinking about really makes me mad.
is it something that i do makes you angry? or is it i've said something that you dislike? or is it that i didn'y so a certain something that makes you unhappy?
i'm really stressed out.

4 more weeks before my EOY exams.
i really do not wish to collapse just before it.
i need your morally support and please, if you had something in ur mind that is troubling you, i'm always there.

i love you